Appointment Yesterday

My doctor put me on medicine for my blood pressure and is having me check my blood sugar 4 times a day 3 times a week. It was high after breakfast this moring. But my fasting blood sugar was fine. I got kind of paniced when my blood sugaer was high. Hopefully it's not after lunch. I have a headache now and my boobs have felt like they are on fire. I hope this isn't symptoms from the medicine I've just started taking.

R.I.P Max

Max was put to sleep Monday 8/15. He will be missed very much.

Belly Pic

Sometimes life has a soundtrack. Today this is it.

Dear Baby Girl,

I'm so excited you're coming. Daddy said hes going to have to stock up on ammo and shovels. He plans on keeping you in the basement, we don't have one but he will start digging. He's gonna take good care of you don't worry. You have 4 older brothers that are gonna watch out for you too I'm sure. Grandma Jan bought you some clothes this weekend. They are very cute. I cant wait to see you in them. Dad and I are trying to name you. I hope you like it. I love you so much and you aren't even here yet. I cant wait to see you but don't come to soon.

Love,
Mom

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Doctor @ 3 today

So today I have a doctors appointment with my regular OB. Not sure much will get done. Hopefully he can find the heratbeat. I have a bunch of questions to ask and I'm sort of concerned about the numbness in my leg. We'll see what he says. I hope he doesn't make me cry. He made me really mad last time.

Fat/Preggo Belly

HIccups?

So Sunday I will be 20 weeks. Half way there. Today I had this thumping feeling in my lower abdomen. I searched that and from what it sounds like the baby had the hiccups. How cute. I hope I start feeling more soon.

Guilty

So I am starting to feel guilty about leaving my baby with a sitter when I have to go back to work. Baby will only be 2 months old and will need a lot fo care. I should be the one taking care of the baby. I know that I shouldn't be stressing but I am. Also stressing about taking child birthing classes. They can be expensive. I'm afraid they will get me worked up and scared. Right now I"m not really afraid of delivery. I just want it to go well. I guess I should look up some pain managment tips.