Friday, October 28, 2011

My Girl

I fall more and more inlove when I see my girl. It's looks like she will have lips like her mom. I cant wait to meet her. A lady from my Santa Babies birth group had her baby already. It just makes everything seem so real. In just a few weeks I'll be a mom. I'll be holding my baby girl. My whole world will change.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Speechless

I'm at a loss for words on how I"ve been feeling lately. Last night I had so much on my mind and wanted to post but I couldn't put any of my feeling into words. So I'm sitting here again not knowing what to say. I guess I'll just ramble.


  • I'm stressed about bills.

  • I wish I could find the perfect baby name.

  • Oh how I wish I would nest and clean my house.

  • I wish I could help with the baby room so I could start putting things away.

  • I really wish it was Christmas time.

  • I want to see my baby so bad.

  • I wish people would offer to come over and help with things around the house.

  • I'm so tired all the time.

  • I read a book to my baby last night.

  • Sometimes I'm so sad I want to cry but I don't and I end up with a headache.

  • I'm excited to go see my inlaws this weekend but not excited about the drive.

  • Mike's been working nights and I miss him a lot.

  • I haven't been eating as well as I should.

  • I'm worried about my blood pressure going up.

  • I really wish I could stay home with my baby girl. I really don't want to put her in day care.

  • Mike's oldest son James called me Tuesday and it really made me happy.

  • I'm scared I'm going to go into labor and not know it.

  • I'm going to get my hair cut tomorrow.

  • I feel like crying right now and I don't know why. Bring on the headache.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

You look pregnant. I look FAT.

That's what I said to one of the nice girls I met from the BabyCenter website. I've been jealous of her belly form the first time I saw it. She has a nice round D belly and my belly is major B belly. I try very hard to make myself look pregnant and not fat. People don't think I'm pregnant. They see my top belly and my bottom belly and it's all fat. No way a baby could be in there. Maybe I'll look pregnant right before I have the baby. Let hope I remember the camera. In the end I guess I'd rather be pregnant and look fat the be fat and look pregnant.

31 Week Dr Appt

Everything went well. My blood sugar and blood pressures are fine. Baby's heart rate is 147. I gained 5 lbs in the last 4 weeks but I'm still below what I was when I started. I've been very uncomfortable lately all thanks to Carpal Tunnel and Sciatica. I keep thinking about labor. I probably shouldn't be complaining now. Ultrasound on Thursday.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Baby Shower



Saturday, October 22, 2011

I wish I knew your name.

You don't know it yet but you're my baby girl. The only thing is I don't know your name. I've tried many names but you never turn around.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Hospital Tour

So Monday evening we went to our hospital tour. I am more comfortable now then I was. It was also better then I expected. They had some Halloween decor so I'm hoping there is a lot of Christmas decor around when I go in. They said they have 1 nurse to two mothers. That was nice. And they usually work 12 hour shifts. I hope I like my nurse. The waiting room was kind of small and full. I hope there aren't a lot of births the same time as mine. So there is a Labor, Delivery and Recovery room/floor. This is where I will go when I go into labor. They have birth balls in every room and will let you labor in any position as long as it's okay with your doctor. They have rooms with showers and tubs but you have to request them. After the baby is born I'll be moved to another floor for the rest of my stay. They have kitchens for snacks and a nursery. I'd like my baby to be with me as much as possible though. Overall it was a nice tour. I might get lost though. They should give you a map. I hope everything goes well.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

I promise......

I promise to my daughter......


  1. To learn to french braid.

  2. Always call you beautiful.

  3. Teach you how a lady should be treated.

  4. Answer your call no matter what time of night.

  5. Throw you awesome budget friendly birthday parties.

  6. Let you be who ever you want to be.

  7. Read to you every night.

  8. Play with you outside.

  9. Show you how to freeze bubbles.

  10. I will not sit you in front of a TV for my convenience.

  11. Get a pair of heals you can play dress up in.

  12. Give you memories.

  13. Show you the ocean.

  14. Learn everything you have to teach me.

  15. Show you how to have fun without electronics.

  16. Tell you I love you every day.

  17. Never combine your birthday and Christmas gift.

  18. Be an example of love.

  19. Always be your best freind.

  20. Hug you when your sad.

  21. Say please and thank you.

  22. Protect you.

Being High Risk isn't that bad.

I'm considered a high risk pregnancy due to my weight. I've also been diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes and Hypertension. I check my blood pressure every morning and evening. I take medicine for my blood pressure every morning and evening. I take my blood sugar 4 times a day; when I wake up, and 1 hour after breakfast, lunch and dinner. I also take medicine at night for my blood sugar.

I'm not saying it's good to have these risk factors during pregnancy but it's not as scary as it seems. I trust my doctor and that is really important. I know he will take care of me and do what is best for me and my baby. Just because I have these things going on doesn't mean there will be anything wrong with my baby. I've gone though this pregnancy expecting something bad to happen to my baby. Society tells you it's not good to have a baby if your overweight. We;ll guess what. I'm having a baby and I'm healthier now then I was before I got pregnant. This baby girl is going to encourage me to be a better person. I want to go on field trips with her, go to the zoo without getting tired of walking, run, jump and skip with her until she gets tired.

I get more ultrasounds then the average pregnant woman. I get to see my doctor more often too. I've actually had to wait 4 weeks this time since he was on vacation last week and it's killing me. I want to see him and my baby. I guess I should get all of my questions together. Well that's enough for now.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Monday

So this post isn't really about anything. It's Monday, it's raining and I stayed up late last night watching the St.Louis Cardinals win to go on to the World Series. Today has been slow. We are going to our hospital tour in a few hours. I'm excited and not so excited about being on my feet for an hour. I called a pediatrician today for our baby girl. I didn't know what questions to ask but I might call back and see if they make you follow strict immunization schedules. I got a fruit cube at work today. It's a company that delivers a box of fruit to your office once a week. I usually don't get them because fruit has carbs and I cant have a lot of carbs. But it's really good fruit. I split it with a coworker this week. I'm munching on some holiday grapes right now.

So I only have 69 days to go. I'm 30 weeks and 1 day. I have a feeling that I'll have her between December 11 and 17th but she could make a late entrence. So it could be more or less time. We won't know until she gets here. I'm trying to get everything together. Hostpital bag, paper work, maternity leave work. It's all got to be done. I'd rather have it done now so I don't have to stress about it later.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Week 30


I can't believe my baby will be here in 10 weeks. I have a feeling this weeks will go by quickly. We have a lot planned between now and then. Yesterday was my brothers wedding. It was sooo beautiful. Sundays are my days home alone so I usually eat and sleep. Should be cleaning. Tomorrow we have our hospital tour. Next weekend is a baby shower with some friends from work at my brother restaurant the Whistle Stop in Ferguson. The week after that I have a doctors appointment on Monday and an ultrasound on Thursday and then we travel to Mike's parents for the weekend. By then were getting into November. I'll probably start my NST by then and then have another baby shower 11/5. And that next weekend I'm excited about the most because I'm going to pull out my Christmas decorations. I know it's early but if I end up in the hospital before I have my tree up I will not be a happy camper. I have it all planned out in my head that the lights will be on when we pull in the driveway with the baby. I'll have my tree and music and baby. I'm going to put it in the sunroom so I can see it from the driveway and spend days sitting in there hopefully watching it snow. And sometime after that I hope nesting kicks in.

Friday, October 14, 2011

Family Wedding



My big brother is getting married tomorrow. I'm so happy for him. I know the stresses of planning a wedding can get quite overwhelming but in the end it's all worth it. It's kind of like being pregnant. It's a roller coaster ride until the baby come. It's like the ride comes to an end and you forget about the fears and queezy stomachs. You just cant help bug giggle and laugh becuase it was so much fun. I know exactly like how they feel right now but my big day is not for another 2 months. So congratulations to Calvin and Susanna. And Susanna may eve share a birthday with my little girl. It's all ment to be. (Cal and Susanna at my wedding in May 2009)


So tomorrow most of my family will see me for the first time since I've been pregnant. I'm still not happy about how I look. I'm half tempted to stuff my shirt. I know what I plan to wear so I hope it makes me look pregnant. Well I hope it makes me look more pregnant. I don't under stand why bigger girls don't show as much. I would think they would show more. Anyways. Tomorrow is a big day. I expect a lot of pictures. The weather should be beautiful.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Our future dreams.


The Country

Is the Missouri Ozarks you can see the most beautiful sights in the world. We want this to be our backyard. My grandmother lives in the country and I would vist every summer. Even though I live in the city I'm a country girl at heart. I love waving at my neighbors, friendly faces at the grocery store and rocking on the front porch. We want our baby to grow up listening to crickets not fire trucks. Mike spent a lot of time in the country growing up and could write a book of good time stories. I want nothing more then to share the beauty of this state with my daughter. Teacher her to hunt and fish like her daddy. Make things from the land like her mom. The country is where we feel at home.


Tuesday, October 11, 2011

A few of my favorite things


Mike's favorite, my favorite and some really cute but shoes that are currely to big.











Non Stress Test 2x a week

So the nurse called yesterday and said I would need to start coming in twice a week for a NST. This is what that is....


The Fetal Non-Stress test is a simple, non-invasive test performed in pregnancies over 28 weeks gestation. The test is named “non-stress” because no stress is placed on the fetus during the test.

How is a NST Performed?

The test involves attaching one belt to the mother’s abdomen to measure fetal heart rate and another belt to measure contractions. Movement, heart rate and “reactivity” of heart rate to movement is measured for 20-30 minutes. If the baby does not move, it does not necessarily indicate that there is a problem; the baby could just be asleep. A nurse may use a small “buzzer” to wake the baby for the remainder of the test.

Why would a NST be performed?

A NST may be performed if:

You sense that the baby is not moving as frequently as usual
You are overdue
There is any reason to suspect that the placenta is not functioning adequately
You are high risk for any other reason < Thats me

The test can indicate if the baby is not receiving enough oxygen because of placental or umbilical cord problems; it can also indicate other types of fetal distress.

What are the risks and side effects to the mother or baby?
A NST is a noninvasive test that poses no known risks or side effects to mother or baby.

What does the NST look for?

The primary goal of the test is to measure the heart rate of the fetus in response to its own movements. Healthy babies will respond with an increased heart rate during times of movement, and the heart rate will decrease at rest. The concept behind a non-stress test is that adequate oxygen is required for fetal activity and heart rate to be within normal ranges. When oxygen levels are low, the fetus may not respond normally. Low oxygen levels can often be caused by problems with the placenta or umbilical cord.

What do the NST results mean and what are the reasons for further testing?

A reactive non-stress result indicates that blood flow (and oxygen) to the fetus is adequate. A nonreactive non-stress result requires additional testing to determine whether the result is truly due to poor oxygenation, or whether there are other reasons for fetal nonreactivity (i.e. sleep patterns, certain maternal prescription or nonprescription drugs).

http://www.americanpregnancy.org/prenataltesting/non-stresstest.html

Let the painting begin.


This is what I think it looks like.



We went out last night and got some paint. Looks like Mike got some primer on the wall last night. He's off today so I hope he has the energy to do some more. I saw a little swatch of the color(Baby Peapod Green) but I'm sure it's nothing like what it will look like on the wall. It's a shade of green. I saw it wet and paniced a little but dry I'm sure it's much better. And he said it was an accent color. So I have no idea what the other color will be.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Another Depressing Day

All becuase of my belly. I don't want to look like I've lost weight I want to look pregnant. I want people to ask me how far along I am, and want people to stop asking me who I'm shopping for. I hate it. Grow baby grow so everyone can see you.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

My Insecurities

So I'm kind of depressed right now. I saw a pic of someones belly and I wish my bare belly looked pregnant. I can usually make myself look pregnant by what I wear but I wish I didn't have too. This past weeks I've been told I've lost weight but don't look pregnant and had to tell a coworker I was pregnant. When I told her I was 6 months it was almost like she didn't believe me. It really sucks. I know my little girl is still small and I'll get bigger I just wish I was happy with how I looked right now. Sometimes I even feel like my husband's not happy with how I look. Part of me wishes more people would touch my belly. Just my insecurities. Sigh.....