Wednesday, September 8, 2010

The Amazing Race

355.1 lbs

Starting a program at work called the Amazing Race. For every 15 mins of activity we earn a mile. There are different prizes along the way and were headed to Kansas City.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Take 54

Who knows how many times I've tried to diet. But I'm trying again. My husband is trying to quit smoking again. I started a WellWalk and Well Weight program at work. Hopfully with the evening cooler for walking and a health coach I can stay on track. I weighted in at 356.2 today. Not my highest weight so I'm glad I haven't been gaining a lot. So I'm trying again.

Monday, May 24, 2010

sick :(

So I haven’t been doing anything good for myself lately. My stomach hurts and I feel nauseous all the time. I don’t know if I’m pregnant (doubt it) or if it’s because I have been eating bad. Part of me wants to be pregnant I think about it everyday. But then again that means money and doctors.

Monday, April 26, 2010

OK Kids

Well my stressful week is over. I'm sure I didn't lose any weight this week. I lost 1 lb last week. I haven't been doing what I should. Mike is home every night now so once the rain is over I'm going to try walking every night again. I did drink some soda too. Shame on me. But I want to do better. It's so hard sometimes. But who am I kidding it's not supposed to be easy. It was easy to get fat it's not going to be easy to lose weight. I was looking at old pictures yesterday and I was so cute. If I could get to were I was 5 years ago I would be happy. I just have to keep moving. Talk to people that encourage me and keep my eye on the prize.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Vacation

I'm on Blogger Vacation ( I made that up) I'm to busy to type this week.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Not a Good Day

So I'm very stressed with life right now. I have so much going on. I'm so busy with trying to keep the house clean, babysitting, working, working overtime and looking for jobs for Mike. I did walk yesterday. A little further then usual. I'm scared to weigh in. I'm so stressed. I just need some quiet time. I need a vacation. I was going to take off the first week in May but now that Mike doesn't have a job I dont know if I can afford to. Ugh. Not a good day.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Got My Mojo Back

I think I got my MOJO back. I've been thinking a lot this moring. I really need to stay on track. Try try hard. I already feel like I'm letting people down but it felt so good when I lost 4 pounds. I feel good after I walk. I don't know why I cant get motovated anymore. So I have to walk today. I have to. There are no if ands or buts about it. I'M GONNA DO IT!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Depressed

I so badly need to walk tonight. I've been pretty good with my eating but no so much with exercise. I'm going to try and get back on track I really want this. I'm not going to weigh myself this week I'm afraid it will be bad news. I have been more active after work. Not just comeing home to watch TV so as I always say... something is better then nothing. Mike quit smoking Saturday. He kinda fell off the horse today but hopefully he can get back on soon. So Mike quit smoking and I quit eating bad so were both working on something hard. I think were a god support system for eachother.



I feel so depressed today. I keep fighting tears and my eyes are so heavy.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

To busy to work out

Yesterday I went to my brothers house to help him pack. Well we weren't very organized so I didn't get as much exercise as I wanted to. I picked up Mike and we got home pretty late. By the time dinner was done it was time for bed. So yesterday I only worked out for 5 mins that morning. Tonight I'm having dinner with Tiffany and tomorrow going shopping with Anna. I guess I'll be trying to workout here at work. Something is better then nothing right?

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

New Weight

353lbs. I lost 4 pounds I'm so excited!!!!!!!!

This and That

So haven't walked after work at all this week. I'm kind of disapointed but I have been walking on my lunch and getting on the ellepitical at night. I'm probably doing more now then I would when I was walking. It's just been a busy week. I'm helping Susanna pack, meeting Tiffany and Cole for dinner and taking Anna to the store. I just have to find that time to get it in. I got on the ellpitical for 5 mins this morning. It's not a lot but it's something. I'm going to try and start working out in the morning but that seems hard. I love my sleep. Ok heres the rundown of what I've been eating, bagels, apples, sub sandwiches and pretzels. Wow that a lot of bread. I should probably change something in that list. Should be able to go grocery shopping this weekend. I think I'm going to weigh myself today. Cross your fingers.

Have a beautiful day!

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Down Hill

So I kind of already feel like I'm getting off track. I really want to do this but it is hard. So many distractions and temptations. I had a bagel for breakfast today and downsized my OJ to a medium. Apple Dippers for my mid morning snack. I didn't have anything to bring for lunch today other then Pizza Rolls so I might have to go out for find a low calorie snack to hold me over. I wish this wasn't so had. For me and all my friends going through this I wish there was an easier way. But it takes time and this is what we have to do. So lets head back up that mountain and get healthier.

Monday, March 29, 2010

Calories

There are approximately 3500 calories in a pound of stored body fat.

Things I Want to Do

  1. Ride a bike
  2. Go kayaking
  3. Run
  4. Sit on my husbands lap
  5. Wear knee high boots
  6. Sit in a booth at a restaurant
  7. Ride a horse
  8. Go to the beach
  9. Rock climb
  10. Shop with my mom
  11. Wear a belt
  12. Walk in heals
  13. Play with my best friends new little girl
  14. Conquer the steps
  15. Get a bear hug

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Dreaded Weekends

I say dreaded because I always "cheat" on my diet. I think overall I did well. Saturday me and Mindy walked for about a mile, we went to Subway and had lunch. It was a nice walk and my back didn't hurt nearly as it had been. I haven't walked today but I will get on the elliptical tonight. Everyone has been very supportive and I'm very happy about it. I have some friends that I hope will blog along with me. I find it a very helpful aid. It's almost if I give up or fail my diet I'm failing in front of everyone. So I made it through 7 days and I'm so proud of myself. Maybe weekends don't have to be so bad.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Goal # 1

Goal # 1 - Be less than 300 lbs.

Game Plan -

  1. Eat smaller portions.
  2. Walk everyday.
  3. Drink water.

Current Stats -

  • Weight - 357lb
  • Exercise - Low
  • Stress Level - Moderate
  • Cravings - High
  • Happiness - Moderate

Before



So I took my before picture and can we say gross. I was so surprised when I saw the pictures. It’s different then looking at yourself in the mirror. I took a front, side and back picture and saw more then I wanted to see. The pictures that you see are blurry because I took a picture of my camera with my phone. I wanted to make sure I could get them posted as soon as I could. I will repost them later. But seriously can we talk about these pictures. Who would honestly want to look at me? I know I’m beautiful and I love myself but not like this. Made me want to cover every inch of my body. I know this is good therapy and I needed to see it. The fact of the matter is this is going to take a long time to fix and I honestly don’t know if I have the will power to do it. All I can do is try and I’m going to try as hard and as long as I can. I’m tired of people asking me if I would get weight loss surgery. I think it would be taking the easy way out for me. I don’t want to send the rest of my life not being able to eat what I want. I want the discipline to only eat what is right but I don’t want to put my body through such a drastic change. It’s been through enough.
All right so last night when I got home Mindy was there. I picked her up and went to the Whistle Stop an ice cream place that has food too. Had a turkey sandwich on wheat. It was very yummy. But then I messed up with potatoes soup and cherry lemonade. Since it was to cold and windy to walk we came home did 15 mins of aerobic dancing, 15 mins of palates with a ball and 15 mins on the elliptical. I’ll post them soon. I’m ready for the weekend they are my test. Usually I get off track on the weekends since my husband is home. I either eat bad or don’t exercise. I don’t feel I’m “hard core” dieting now but I know I need to start off slow if I’m going to stick with it. Had my OJ and McMuffin for breakfast and my parfait for my mid morning snack. Don’t know what I’ll have for lunch yet.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Stress VS Weight

Had a talk today with a manager about a supervisor and I'm kind of regretting it now. I really don't want to effect my work environment or be put in an awkward situation. I don't know why I let this stress me out. It's not doing me any good. I love my job and most everyone I work with. I just need to relax and not think so negatively. Stress isn't good for anyone. Cant wait to go on my walk. It's raining but I might get get my umbrella and still walk outside.

Tips and Tricks

Here are some tips and tricks I have been hearing.

  • Eat a lot of little meals.


  • Take before and after pictures.


  • Chew gum to curve that sweet craving.


  • STOP drinking soda.


  • Standing burns more calories then sitting and walking burns more calories then standing.


  • MOVE - whether its tapping a toe or spinning in your chair it's better then sitting still.


  • Keep a food diary.


  • Eat off of kid plates to help with portion control.


  • Don’t compare yourself to others - everybody will lose weight differently.


  • You’re allowed to “mess up” every now and again.


  • Eat slowly it gives your stomach time to tell your brain your full.

Mindy's Coming Today

I had a bagel for breakfast and took the stairs to the second floor today. My calves are killing me. Mindy will be here this afternoon and I think we will have to get on the elliptical its supposed to rain all day.
Miranda is a great friend of mine that lives in South Carolina, we are very much alike but we have never even talked on the phone. We’ve decided to go though this weight loss thing together.
So Beth at work is talking about Smore Poptarts and I'm really craving them.....shes evil.

So I had rice for lunch its 300 calories for 1 cup. I have another cup left I will keep it for my afternoon snack or for dinner tonight. I have some carots for a snack too if I need it.

Previously on Don't Want To Be......Fat

3/22

Today started as any ordinary day but it ended with a burst of inspiration. On my way home from work I called Mindy. As we often do we get on the subject of weight loss. Mindy has been working out every day and trying to get me to also. But for me it’s not so easy. I’m 357lbs! So after talking about how I feel my husband doesn’t find me attractive and our sex life is very little I decided to take a walk. So I put on a t-shirt and my crocs (I don’t have very good walking shoes I know) and leashed up the dog. The dog was my first mistake. Max is a 100lb German Shepard that doesn’t go on walks much. So he pulled me most of the way. My lower back was killing me I had to stop a few times to stretch my back out. We made it back home and it was nice to rest. I moved the elliptical into the living room so I could use it while I watch TV. I got on it for a few minutes but then sat down. I then had to figure out dinner. We didn’t have much so I had tortillas and cheese. Wasn’t the best but it was simple.

I began to write my husband who is a truck driver and wasn’t home an email about how I felt. While writing it he called me. I ended up telling him what I was writing. I’m doing this for him and I just wanted his support. He’s been a great support in the past but this was all for him. He told me how he loved me how I was but I want to be better. It’s not just to have more sex, but to have better sex.

3/23

Day 2 of my new weight loss journey. I had a sausage McMuffin (360 calories) from McDonalds and a large orange juice. For my mid morning snack I had a few pretzels and for lunch I had a chilidog. Again not the best but better. My biggest problem is snacking. Little high calorie snacks kick my butt. So I called a few people to see if they wanted to walk with me today but no one could. I walked the same walk I did yesterday. 2 blocks up, turned on N Clay, started back towards the house on Church St and right on Maple, left back onto Darst and on my way home. It’s .531 miles according to www.daftlogic.com. My lower back was hurting again but not as bad as yesterday. I cooked pork chops and green beans for dinner. But that wasn’t enough. I was so mad that I was still hungry. So I tried to find somewhat healthy snacks. I ate the other pork chop I had cooked and bagel. I ended up going to bed at 8pm so I wouldn’t eat anymore.

3/24

Today I decided to start a Blog. Day 3. . I had a sausage McMuffin (360 calories) from McDonalds and a large orange juice again. Also got a Fruit and Yogurt Parfait (150 calories) for my mid morning snack. It’s almost lunchtime and I ordered a Club Salad from Off The Grill. It comes with grilled chicken, ham, bacon, egg, tomatoes, cucumbers, mushrooms and cheese. I had them take off the bacon and mushrooms and I’m having light ranch. I’ll eat half for lunch and half for dinner. Susanna my older brothers girlfriend is supposed to walk with me tonight. I’m kind of embarrassed because I do have to stop and stretch and I know she won’t have to. She understanding though and I think she can be a good support for me.

Mindy is coming in tomorrow night, I’m so very excited. She won’t get in until 7 so I doubt we will walk but Sean is supposed to walk with me tomorrow. I’m going to have Mindy take my picture “Biggest Loser” style so I can put it on my fridge. I need a before and after and I need to be reminded why I am doing this. I hope to post it here too. I’m also going to weigh myself today at work. Last time I weighted myself it was in January and I was 357lbs. Lets see how much I have changed.

Well I weighted myself and I was 357 but I looked at what I was in January and I was 352. So not very happy.

Feel great after my walk. I make Asian Hamburger Helper. It was yummy. Ate it in a kids bowl for portion control.