Speechless

I'm at a loss for words on how I"ve been feeling lately. Last night I had so much on my mind and wanted to post but I couldn't put any of my feeling into words. So I'm sitting here again not knowing what to say. I guess I'll just ramble.

• I'm stressed about bills.


• I wish I could find the perfect baby name.


• Oh how I wish I would nest and clean my house.


• I wish I could help with the baby room so I could start putting things away.


• I really wish it was Christmas time.


• I want to see my baby so bad.


• I wish people would offer to come over and help with things around the house.


• I'm so tired all the time.


• I read a book to my baby last night.


• Sometimes I'm so sad I want to cry but I don't and I end up with a headache.


• I'm excited to go see my inlaws this weekend but not excited about the drive.


• Mike's been working nights and I miss him a lot.


• I haven't been eating as well as I should.


• I'm worried about my blood pressure going up.


• I really wish I could stay home with my baby girl. I really don't want to put her in day care.


• Mike's oldest son James called me Tuesday and it really made me happy.


• I'm scared I'm going to go into labor and not know it.


• I'm going to get my hair cut tomorrow.


• I feel like crying right now and I don't know why. Bring on the headache.