Friday, October 14, 2011

Family Wedding



My big brother is getting married tomorrow. I'm so happy for him. I know the stresses of planning a wedding can get quite overwhelming but in the end it's all worth it. It's kind of like being pregnant. It's a roller coaster ride until the baby come. It's like the ride comes to an end and you forget about the fears and queezy stomachs. You just cant help bug giggle and laugh becuase it was so much fun. I know exactly like how they feel right now but my big day is not for another 2 months. So congratulations to Calvin and Susanna. And Susanna may eve share a birthday with my little girl. It's all ment to be. (Cal and Susanna at my wedding in May 2009)


So tomorrow most of my family will see me for the first time since I've been pregnant. I'm still not happy about how I look. I'm half tempted to stuff my shirt. I know what I plan to wear so I hope it makes me look pregnant. Well I hope it makes me look more pregnant. I don't under stand why bigger girls don't show as much. I would think they would show more. Anyways. Tomorrow is a big day. I expect a lot of pictures. The weather should be beautiful.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Our future dreams.


The Country

Is the Missouri Ozarks you can see the most beautiful sights in the world. We want this to be our backyard. My grandmother lives in the country and I would vist every summer. Even though I live in the city I'm a country girl at heart. I love waving at my neighbors, friendly faces at the grocery store and rocking on the front porch. We want our baby to grow up listening to crickets not fire trucks. Mike spent a lot of time in the country growing up and could write a book of good time stories. I want nothing more then to share the beauty of this state with my daughter. Teacher her to hunt and fish like her daddy. Make things from the land like her mom. The country is where we feel at home.


Tuesday, October 11, 2011

A few of my favorite things


Mike's favorite, my favorite and some really cute but shoes that are currely to big.











Non Stress Test 2x a week

So the nurse called yesterday and said I would need to start coming in twice a week for a NST. This is what that is....


The Fetal Non-Stress test is a simple, non-invasive test performed in pregnancies over 28 weeks gestation. The test is named “non-stress” because no stress is placed on the fetus during the test.

How is a NST Performed?

The test involves attaching one belt to the mother’s abdomen to measure fetal heart rate and another belt to measure contractions. Movement, heart rate and “reactivity” of heart rate to movement is measured for 20-30 minutes. If the baby does not move, it does not necessarily indicate that there is a problem; the baby could just be asleep. A nurse may use a small “buzzer” to wake the baby for the remainder of the test.

Why would a NST be performed?

A NST may be performed if:

You sense that the baby is not moving as frequently as usual
You are overdue
There is any reason to suspect that the placenta is not functioning adequately
You are high risk for any other reason < Thats me

The test can indicate if the baby is not receiving enough oxygen because of placental or umbilical cord problems; it can also indicate other types of fetal distress.

What are the risks and side effects to the mother or baby?
A NST is a noninvasive test that poses no known risks or side effects to mother or baby.

What does the NST look for?

The primary goal of the test is to measure the heart rate of the fetus in response to its own movements. Healthy babies will respond with an increased heart rate during times of movement, and the heart rate will decrease at rest. The concept behind a non-stress test is that adequate oxygen is required for fetal activity and heart rate to be within normal ranges. When oxygen levels are low, the fetus may not respond normally. Low oxygen levels can often be caused by problems with the placenta or umbilical cord.

What do the NST results mean and what are the reasons for further testing?

A reactive non-stress result indicates that blood flow (and oxygen) to the fetus is adequate. A nonreactive non-stress result requires additional testing to determine whether the result is truly due to poor oxygenation, or whether there are other reasons for fetal nonreactivity (i.e. sleep patterns, certain maternal prescription or nonprescription drugs).

http://www.americanpregnancy.org/prenataltesting/non-stresstest.html

Let the painting begin.


This is what I think it looks like.



We went out last night and got some paint. Looks like Mike got some primer on the wall last night. He's off today so I hope he has the energy to do some more. I saw a little swatch of the color(Baby Peapod Green) but I'm sure it's nothing like what it will look like on the wall. It's a shade of green. I saw it wet and paniced a little but dry I'm sure it's much better. And he said it was an accent color. So I have no idea what the other color will be.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Another Depressing Day

All becuase of my belly. I don't want to look like I've lost weight I want to look pregnant. I want people to ask me how far along I am, and want people to stop asking me who I'm shopping for. I hate it. Grow baby grow so everyone can see you.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

My Insecurities

So I'm kind of depressed right now. I saw a pic of someones belly and I wish my bare belly looked pregnant. I can usually make myself look pregnant by what I wear but I wish I didn't have too. This past weeks I've been told I've lost weight but don't look pregnant and had to tell a coworker I was pregnant. When I told her I was 6 months it was almost like she didn't believe me. It really sucks. I know my little girl is still small and I'll get bigger I just wish I was happy with how I looked right now. Sometimes I even feel like my husband's not happy with how I look. Part of me wishes more people would touch my belly. Just my insecurities. Sigh.....