My Girl

I fall more and more inlove when I see my girl. It's looks like she will have lips like her mom. I cant wait to meet her. A lady from my Santa Babies birth group had her baby already. It just makes everything seem so real. In just a few weeks I'll be a mom. I'll be holding my baby girl. My whole world will change.

Speechless

I'm at a loss for words on how I"ve been feeling lately. Last night I had so much on my mind and wanted to post but I couldn't put any of my feeling into words. So I'm sitting here again not knowing what to say. I guess I'll just ramble.

• I'm stressed about bills.


• I wish I could find the perfect baby name.


• Oh how I wish I would nest and clean my house.


• I wish I could help with the baby room so I could start putting things away.


• I really wish it was Christmas time.


• I want to see my baby so bad.


• I wish people would offer to come over and help with things around the house.


• I'm so tired all the time.


• I read a book to my baby last night.


• Sometimes I'm so sad I want to cry but I don't and I end up with a headache.


• I'm excited to go see my inlaws this weekend but not excited about the drive.


• Mike's been working nights and I miss him a lot.


• I haven't been eating as well as I should.


• I'm worried about my blood pressure going up.


• I really wish I could stay home with my baby girl. I really don't want to put her in day care.


• Mike's oldest son James called me Tuesday and it really made me happy.


• I'm scared I'm going to go into labor and not know it.


• I'm going to get my hair cut tomorrow.


• I feel like crying right now and I don't know why. Bring on the headache.

You look pregnant. I look FAT.

That's what I said to one of the nice girls I met from the BabyCenter website. I've been jealous of her belly form the first time I saw it. She has a nice round D belly and my belly is major B belly. I try very hard to make myself look pregnant and not fat. People don't think I'm pregnant. They see my top belly and my bottom belly and it's all fat. No way a baby could be in there. Maybe I'll look pregnant right before I have the baby. Let hope I remember the camera. In the end I guess I'd rather be pregnant and look fat the be fat and look pregnant.

31 Week Dr Appt

Everything went well. My blood sugar and blood pressures are fine. Baby's heart rate is 147. I gained 5 lbs in the last 4 weeks but I'm still below what I was when I started. I've been very uncomfortable lately all thanks to Carpal Tunnel and Sciatica. I keep thinking about labor. I probably shouldn't be complaining now. Ultrasound on Thursday.

Baby Shower

I wish I knew your name.

You don't know it yet but you're my baby girl. The only thing is I don't know your name. I've tried many names but you never turn around.

Hospital Tour

So Monday evening we went to our hospital tour. I am more comfortable now then I was. It was also better then I expected. They had some Halloween decor so I'm hoping there is a lot of Christmas decor around when I go in. They said they have 1 nurse to two mothers. That was nice. And they usually work 12 hour shifts. I hope I like my nurse. The waiting room was kind of small and full. I hope there aren't a lot of births the same time as mine. So there is a Labor, Delivery and Recovery room/floor. This is where I will go when I go into labor. They have birth balls in every room and will let you labor in any position as long as it's okay with your doctor. They have rooms with showers and tubs but you have to request them. After the baby is born I'll be moved to another floor for the rest of my stay. They have kitchens for snacks and a nursery. I'd like my baby to be with me as much as possible though. Overall it was a nice tour. I might get lost though. They should give you a map. I hope everything goes well.